Bringing her son into the world was not easy, butSelma Blaircan’t imagine one without him.
The actress usedInstagram on Thursdayto celebrate her son Arthur’s 8th birthday, revealing that she was heartbroken she would not get to see him on his special day.
“I slept two hours. There is a pain. In my head. In my throat where the tears start. I want to smell him. Tell him I am so proud of him. Hold him,” she wrote, next to a photo of her son cutting his mom’s hair. “And I will. Just not on his birthday. Which is today.”
She candidly recalled his difficult delivery, revealing the intense pain and stress she went through with an induced labor that lasted 37 hours.
“It was a painful induced labor. He was weeks late according to doctors. I felt fine. He wouldn’t listen. And there was still fluid. But I was pressured and agreed. Defeated,” she revealed. “The inducing was horrific and no dilation. Full labor with no dilation. for 37 hours. I finally asked for an epidural. I was so at their mercy. And I had to protect him. I was scared of motherhood.”
Blair, 47, was scared she wouldn’t be “a good enough mother” for her son, who she shares with ex Jason Bleick, regardless of the reassurance from her friend who drove two hours to stay with her during the labor.
“He was born at 1021 this morning. July 25,” she continued, explaining that she had to fire a doctor mid-labor who wanted to have her deliver Arthur via caesarean section. “Jason cut the cord and said he looked like me.”
“He’s had to endure a lot; he’s seen a lot,” Blair exclusively tells PEOPLE in the cover story of the latest issue, including watching her fall down stairs or rush to a bathroom if she’s feeling sick.
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But Arthur doesn’t view his mom’s weaknesses negatively, she says. “He says, ‘Mommy’s not sick. Mommy’s brave.’ ”
Blair was recently surprised to learn that Arthur enjoys having her visit his school, telling his mom that he loves it because she makes the other kids laugh.
“I had no idea Arthur was proud of that,” she says. “I thought ‘I’m probably an embarrassment,’ but to know I’m not was one of my proudest moments.”
Blair’s new seriesAnother Lifelaunches July 25 on Netflix.
source: people.com
