Emilia Bechrakisis getting honest about the conflicting emotions surrounding the birth of a child.

“I felt such a need to be private about my pregnancy on social media because I had so many ups and downs,” wrote Bechrakis, whounderwent in vitro fertilizationwith Serhant, 34, to conceive their daughter. “I found the anxiety overwhelming. But through all the fears, scares, sickness, and aches, I loved every moment. Even the hardest moments. Every kick, every hiccup, every heartbeat, every ultrasound visit … ”

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In his birth announcement on Sunday, Serhant revealed that he and his wife “waited almost 3 years to meet” their daughter anddetailed the emotional processit took for them to get to the point of becoming parents, writing a lengthy message addressed to the newborn.

“We had no idea how difficult getting pregnant with you was going to be,” he wrote. “We tried everything. We were so nervous you might never come. When we finallydecided to try IVF, we wereso scared it wouldn’t work. And then you stuck. And then we heard your little heartbeat for the first time. Your mom and I were so excited every time we would go to the hospital to see you, but even more terrified we would lose you.”

Continuing, he added, “Because the fact that we were pregnant — as beautiful as it was — was almost too good to be true. And because of that fear, we loved you as hard as we could from the moment we knew you existed. We thought if we put that love for you out there, you would hear it, and you would make it. I watched you grow slowly with your momma every day, waiting forthe moment I would finally meet you.”

Sharingher own hospital snapshot, Bechrakis wrote that she still “can’t find the perfect words to describe how madly in love I am” and revealed how “Every night, I prayed with all my soul that you were healthy and thanked God for the miracle that you are.”

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In September,Page Sixwas the first to report the happy news that Serhant and Bechrakis were expecting their first child. The couple, whomarried in July 2016 on the island of Corfuin Greece, have been undergoing fertility treatments throughout the most recent season ofMDLNY.

The pair have been open about their wish to start a family. “I’ve been looking forward to being a mom but I just always expected that it was going to be easy,” Bechrakis said in the season 7 trailer while in episode 5, they divedinto the realities of IVF.

“I’m 33. She’s 32. We’ve been to doctors. We’ve been checked out and we’re both fine,” Serhant said. “So we’re now at the point where if we want to start a family,the next steps are to do IVF.”

source: people.com